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a release date

well, here I sit (with great espresso), wrapping up my very last edit notes on book three of The Blood Race series, Resurgence, before it's off to my proofreader on the 29th. to say that i'm stoked would be an understatement.

i am ecstatic about this book.

this one's been a very different journey and it's extremely personal. in so many ways i feel that i bled into this book. i grew with this book and its shaped me over the past year and a half-ish i've been working on it. if i had to use one word to describe resurgence it would be: relevant. i don't want to expound on what that means, because my greatest hope is that everyone will take resurgence and make it their own; find themselves in between the lines. no book has ever felt so real and urgent to me as i've written it as this one.

it's funny because i feel like i've been talking about this book forever, and there's a good reason for that - resurgence is the longest and the most multi-dimensional in the series. i see something in a new way every time i read through the book, i think there's really something for everyone in this one, and that's why whenever i think of this book, the word journey comes to mind. that's really what it feels like. it's not static and i don't think it can really be read the same way twice. maybe it sounds funny to hear an author saying something like that about their own book, but in so many ways i feel like i'm just a recipient of resurgence, like it was given to me as a gift, and i still have so much to find within its pages and learn from so many of the beautiful, restless, longing, wandering, searching characters. it feels strange to even call them characters really: they are friends. mentors. people. they've supported me, they've carried me, and i cannot imagine life without them. no, character is far too weak a word to describe who they are and what they mean to me - what they've given me.

and now...now i finally get to share them with you - again. one more time.

and that will be on september 1st of this year, 2019.

that's all i have to say, really.

that, and i cannot wait.

i love you guys!!!!
stay stoked


what is it to be a writer but to live in a constant state of overwhelm? an ebbing, flowing wave of it; a relentless burdening of the senses; an inability to gaze out through a rain streaked window without noticing the torrents of story blurring across the asphalt below; the incapacity to look at trees without hearing even the subtlest tones of a voice it seems only you can grant it. 

the storyteller is a stranger in an even dazzlingly stranger world. we are nomads, at home nowhere; we are restless and churning and ever changing course, like tides and stars. 

we stand outside looking in, holding the space time continuum in our two hands like a glittering, balled up veil, wondering - whispering. we turn the world round and it spins us in equal measure, but we can't make sense of it; we understand nothing, but we feel so much sometimes we can barely move beneath the weight of it all. 

we tread lightly - silently, and yet behind our eyes all is ablaze. everything is hot, and cold, heavy and light, and pulling us apart at the seams to shake out the stardust inside of us. that's what's happening when our eyes appear hollow - when you ask if we heard what you just said from across the table. 

we pause, we close our eyes and take a deep breath - we stumble through all the rooms of our minds so filled to bursting with everything - everything we've yet to find words to flesh out. 

"just lost in thought" we say. 

we really want to say: "just lost."

we watch where we step, aware of the underground springs seemingly always beneath us, from where all sensations and breath and story flow, lifting us, carrying us, pulling us under and tossing us until our senses have been mislaid. until we are numb; intoxicated by a world we try to articulate with all the passion and urgency one tries to describe a lover; as if all the world is missing out on the wildfire we can feel inside us - as if we alone can redeem humankind from the absence of these consuming flames - this revelry.

and yet, so often all we can speak is an ecstatic language native only to us. no one else can see the icebergs beneath the turbulence - an entire world wrapped away in the depths of us. 

only us. 

the ground erupts with our every step, gushing with words; soaking us with a mystery few can understand - few can see. we don't understand it either, but we know that it's there. 

we feel it on the wind; we dance in its arms. 


i'm back from my trip off grid!! i'm so so happy to be back in vermont making new things to share with you guys - my sweet, gifted friends. i'm not really sure what the piece above is, but i wrote it on the very rainy drive home. it felt great to let the words just pour out of my skull without knowing where they came from or where they were going.

anyway, enough about me - tell me how you're doing! how's your life and projects and dreams doing? i would love to hear all about it. 

stay stoked,

intentional creating + kinda big announcement


it can be difficult to see a need to slow down in a world that seems to rush around our ankles like a receding tide. it can be tricky to step back, take a few long, slow breaths, and come to the conclusion that quality is far more important than quantity in a cultural climate that seems to chant: make more, make more, make more, at the top of its voice.

but as a writer, i've come to deeply, deeply feel that it doesn't matter how much we make nearly as much as it matters how and why we make it. that's where the quality comes from - the meaning. the reason.

because there has to be a reason, hasn't there? 

why do we write, draw, sing, dance, and do all the other things? let's not go so fast that we're distracting ourselves from asking these questions - these important questions. 

(this reminds me of a really great ted talk that i've watched many times and highly recommend.)

what's better? that i make one very important, very authentic, very true, very meaningful thing - or that i make a bunch of things that my heart wasn't in, that i forced and muscled my way through, and that mean very little to me and likely anyone else?

see, as creatives we have some of the most important jobs - we're dealing with human hearts, souls - people's lives. we have fire in our hands! we have the opportunity to impact someone's life in a lasting way, for better or for worse. that's why creating with a reason, with an intention, and with a purpose is so incredibly important.

we need to quit this idea of "more", and lay hold of this glorious notion of creating intentionally - with our hearts.

i feel like this post tags on super well to last week's, which was about taking internet breaks and disconnecting in order to recharge - which can definitely help aid us in creating with a higher level of intention. this is actually the last blog post you will see from me until may - yes, this is the sign-off, my rad friend. i'll be unplugging, recharging, and getting stoked (aka surfing a lot). 

because even though the world likes to rush, we don't have to, and that's not the place where cool stuff is made. cool stuff is slow-cooked. it takes time and patience to steep. and that's the place i want to create from.

all that said, i wasn't sure if now was the time to announce it or not, but i feel like, having said everything i just did, this is the perfect time:

i've written three more books for you. and i'll be releasing two books this year.

i'll be publishing resurgence, the final book in the blood race trilogy, plus another new book. i don't want to give too much away about it right now, except that i am very, very excited about it and you guys will be hearing a lot more about it in the coming months. you'll also have a release date from me soon for resurgence, so keep your soul windows peeled for that. 

creating from a place of intention has some very cool perks. i can't wait to share more with you guys. i can't wait to see what ideas come to me while i'm away, and i also can't wait to let those ideas take over my life and make me drink loads of coffee and type away like mad for hours on end and transform into stories for you guys. eeeeeee!!


that's it for now! signing off. i love you guys and would be nowhere without you! have an amped april

stay stoked!

internet breaks (and why we should take them)

taking a break.

it's funny how these days all of the above can be viewed in a negative light by many "hustlers." in the age of social media and constant connection, taking a step back can seem like an action that will come with more minus signs than plus marks. but I beg to differ.

though some may tend to view vanishing off the radar as a negative, i know from experience that it comes with myriad benefits - including sanity, peace, and finding yourself more genuinely connected than ever.

we often use the word "connection" in relation to our phones, the internet, and social media, but in reality these tools, if used unwisely, can easily leave us feeling more disconnected and lonely. having your face in front of a screen for a considerable portion of your day rather than engaging with the world around you doesn't exactly inspire thoughts of "connect" but rather the opposite.

now don't get me wrong - i'm a passionate indie and entrepreneur, and the internet and social media make up the very backbone of my business; i love and value these tools, and use them every day. But i think it's so important to take a step back and assess how much time we're spending in front of a screen vs engaging with the world around us.

to me, being truly "connected" looks a lot more like getting up at sunrise for coffee with my husband, practicing karate outside barefoot, getting fresh, fragrant earth under my fingernails, paddling out on my surfboard, practicing yoga, drinking a warm mug of tea and writing a short story, gathering around my family's bustling dining room table for dinner, staying up late to talk and laugh for hours with my sister...

this... this is what being connected looks like to me. and these everyday miracles are often the moments that are interrupted by the buzz of a new notification or phone call. these are the moments that tailored selfies invade; we often begin to look at our lives and habitats with a critical eye, changing this, tweaking that, and putting only the most "pinterest-worthy" versions of ourselves forward.

but the thing is, that's not real. that's not authentic. there's nothing wrong with taking photos or posting on social media, but when you find your life orbiting your "socials" rather than the other way around? that's not truly enjoying life. i don't want to lose these moments, because these moments are the fabric of LIFE...i refuse to sacrifice these moments even for my career.

i believe in balance. i believe we need to pay attention and to stay aware. we can build our careers, we can stay connected online - yes. but we can also find that balance...we can stay connected with the world around us and those right in front of us. and for me, i can best stay balanced by taking breaks.

and let's just put this up front...taking a break is not a sign of weakness, it's a sign of strength. it's a sign of good judgement, and self love. it's a sign that you are leading a balanced life.

i'm an indie author and an entrepreneur, so I have quite a bit going on via social media, but I still take breaks and go off grid. in fact, that's exactly what I'm doing in april for a whole month. is that reckless and irresponsible to do when you're your own boss?

it's the opposite.

taking a break helps you reconnect to everything that truly matters. If the Internet went away overnight, this...THIS: the chair you're sitting in, the tea you might be drinking, the sounds around you, the people that might be in the room with you or in the apartment next door, the trees beyond your window, the floor or earth beneath you - this is what you would have left. this is real. this is what truly matters, and why we do all the other things.

in all the hustle, don't lose the reason. the reason is all around us all the time, we just need to open our eyes to see it.

so don't feel guilty about taking a break, and don't let anyone make you feel like you should be juggling everything. to truly, fully, and holistically live our lives in the moment we need to take breaks, reconnect, go off grid...yes, yes, yes. you are doing it right. if you need a push, or a nod, or validation, let this be it:

go for it. take that break. go off grid. recharge, reconnect, refill the cup because you can't pour from an empty place. go get inspired so you can inspire others, and create with INTENTION. believe me, your reader/followers/fans will thank you and respect you for it.

stay stoked...and stay TRULY connected,