the book of questions


I wrote the book I'm editing because one time I was seventeen.

One time I was seventeen, and I had written so many other things, a lot of other manuscripts that live in my laptop, and that made me happy. I would do something with these someday, and writing them had gotten things off my chest that needed to be gotten off. But even with that, I felt like I was still standing outside, watching a storm crawl closer over the prairie.

I wrote this book because I didn't know how not to write this book. This book beat at the insides of my rib cage and demanded things. I felt God nudging me playfully toward the edge. I heard that voice and it was calling me closer:

come on come on.

I've heard different people use different words to describe it: calling, purpose, ikigai, dharma. The things that, when you do it, you feel like you could do it forever. The things that get you out of bed in the morning.

This book got me out of bed in the morning-- gets me out of bed in the morning. Questions get me out of bed in the morning.

What's around the next bend? why are things like this? how can we take these dangerous hands and make something else? something more? something beautiful? 

I guess I was tired of books that only had answers, because I couldn't really relate to them. I wanted to read a book that didn't know everything, so I wrote one.

About asking more questions,
and sleepless nights,
and graffiti sprayed on walls,
and parties that everyone is invited to,
and fathers and sons,
and coming home,
and reaching,
and searching,
and finding.


I've been with these characters since I was a neophyte; since they were neophytes too. I feel like they were the kiddos next door that I grew up causing a ruckus playing nicely in the streets with. They're brothers, sisters.

I wake up every morning and fall on the floor, and pick myself up, and pour the coffee and play with these kids, and I have to admit, I really can't wait to introduce them to you guys.

This is what I've been working on. Image one and image two are bits and pieces of all this.




xO 
kATE

ok ok ok, 
what have you guys been working on? what food have you been eating? also, does it feel like summer yet to you, because it's 90 here and I am in love. also, Cally wrote this amazing piece you should go read because it is beaut. 







 
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  1. This is such lovely timing because I've been thinking a lot lately(and by lately, I mean for two months) about how terrified I am of not knowing things..and how I really shouldn't be terrified...I should be intrigued. And how hard it is for me to just nod and say "okay this seems out of place and I am confused..but that is okay".

    Gosh, I can't wait to meet these characters of yours! ♥

    I get it, the feeling of a story that just won't leave you alone. I've been writing the same story for five years, trying to tell it right..I suppose it might have taken me this long because I lack motivation...but I like to think it's also due in part to the burning desire to tell the *right* story. And I know it'll never be perfect, but since I've started my second draft, my characters have "spoken up" in so many ways, as if to let me know some things I have written aren't something they would actually do or say. Idk if any of that makes sense XD

    IT FEELS LIKE SUMMER HERE AND I AM SO HAPPY YET SO STICKY AND MELTY AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE #HUMIDITY

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    1. DUDE, YOUR POST THAT YOU WROTE ABOUT ALL OF THAT, THOUGH....DAAAANG. WOW.

      I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO MEET THEM. (ok, I need to stop using all caps XD)

      I hear you about the thoughts on the book...but yeah, taking the time to really say what your soul needs to say; that's the big thing. That's the hard part, and it requires a lot of time sometime. I honestly CAN'T WAIT to read this book of your eventually because your writing is like O_O wow.

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  2. The I hear about your book, the more I'm looking forward to being able to read it one day. I think the world needs more books that don't have the answers, but prompt the search.

    Also, how do you write so well?! Every word in your posts is so meaningful, and takes me in.

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    1. Jessica, reading your comment seriously made my day :') thank you!

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  3. Oh my gosh.

    This made me cry. It was like I didn't know I needed this book until I saw your writing. We all have questions, we all have felt this before. You have a gift! I can't wait to read this someday.

    Also you are an amazing writer please never stop.

    Katie katieconfetti.blogspot.com

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    1. awwww, KATIE thank you! <3 And you have a BEAUTIFUL name btw ;)

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  4. Wow.

    I felt this.

    Yeah. No words, Kate. No words.

    I'm working on a book of my own... and it's a tricky little thing... working through some plot holes. But man do I love my characters. Man do I love them. Food I've been eating: hot wings and chai tea. Ya know. The good stuff.

    And yesssss it feels like summer. :-) Absolutely.

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    1. Books *can* definitely be tricky little thugs hahaa. Can't wait to snap up a copy of *yours* girl!

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  5. Oh my goodness, Kate. I cannot wait for you to be a famous author, and I'll read every book that you publish and cry because I'll remember you telling us about it. It sounds absolutely beautiful. The more I hear, the more I want to read it.

    I completely know what you're talking about, too. I've been working on a novel of my own, and I decided that I needed a bit of a break to clear my head. Well, a day later I was already going crazy because I wanted to write more.

    I have been eating lots of waffles, and my grandma made a Boston creme cake, so that was pretty awesome. It doesn't quite feel like summer to me yet, but I'm sure that it will very soon. It's getting nice and warm, shorts are the norm, and I just love breathing in the sunshine.

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    1. ohmygoodness, Grace Anne! :') Thank you, girl!

      I totally know what you mean about taking writing breaks, sometimes they seem to drive you crazy more than anything else! XD

      AND WAFFLES AND BOSTON CREME CAKE...THAT SOUNDS AMAZING JS. And I am also sooo happy that it's finally shorts weather!

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  6. Oh, wow, this is beautiful, darling. Please publish your book. I know I need it. :)

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    1. Aww, thank you so much, Alyssa! <3 I can't wait to publish it! Your kind words mean soo much

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  7. K AAAAAATTIEE AAEA AAAAA *screams until my voice goes out*

    this is good. this runs in my veins. i am pumped to read your book and taste of these questions. because it was what my childhood was made of. miracles and magic. Lord, take me back to those days when everything was a mystery.

    my book is going slow (it'll get going soon!), sausage and biscuits filled my tummy this morning and brought happiness like the wind, and summer runs wild here in these Colorado hills. summer is here. the earth hums the tune every day and the snow has gone but these clouds rain the summer rain.

    p.s. i need your book NOW. oh my goodness. it sounds wonderful and i am dearly in love with it. xx cally

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    1. "Lord, take me back to those days when everything was a mystery."

      YES YES YES YES YES YES YES. Cally you are so much POET js

      THANK YOUUU :) <3

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  8. "I guess I was tired of books that only had answers, because I couldn't really relate to them." I can relate to that so much. I love that.

    Oh man I really want to read your book. It sounds amazing. You're amazing. xx

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    1. YOU are amazing! Thank you so much <3

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  9. you know, sometimes when i read your posts i like, cut and paste the bits that really stood out to me. and i'm really sad because i can't do that with this post because i want to cut and paste ALL OF IT.
    and when i say all of it I MEAN ALL OF IT.
    basically, I WANT TO READ YOUR BOOK, and i want to meet the characters, and like, i think i need to rethink my life so that it can be about questions, instead of answers.

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    1. omggg dude, :') thank you SO MUCH. AND THIS IS HOW I FEEL WHEN I READ YOUR BLOG JS. like dang

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  10. you have no idea how giddy this makes me with excitement. i feel like my soul needs to feed off of this book to live. sooo yeah you should probably hurry up and get it out there soon ;) you're a master crafts[wo]man with words and also with these collages i honestly wish i was you.

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    1. poehgjaf;gbwegw THANK YOUUU <3 I honestly cannot wait to get it out there and youR WORDS MEAN SO MUCCHHH I CAAAN'T EVENNNN :'D <3

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    1. ok but u r a cgi theme PARK

      A ROLLER COASTER TYCOON. A REGULAR ROLLER COASTER TYCOOOOOOON

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  12. This post is so aesthetically pleasing it makes my chest hurt. You give me major creative jealousy, jsyk ;) your characters look so poignant and I can't wait to snap up a copy of your book as soon as it hits the shelves :)

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    1. gaaaaaHHHHHHH OLIVIA THANK YOU <3 AND I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL *YOUR* BOOK HITS SHELVES BECAUSE I REQUIRE IT SO MUCH.

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  13. Okay, so I'm seventeen, and the idea of this book rings so true with me. "I guess I was tired of books that only had answers, because I couldn't really relate to them. I wanted to read a book that didn't know everything, so I wrote one." GAHHHHH!!! I need to read this book, it sounds so TRUE and amazing!

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    1. AHHHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH ELIZABETH ❤❤❤❤

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