it's okay


you don't know everything yet. you're learning, you're experimenting. you are figuring it out.

it's okay. that is all okay. 

it's okay to not know what exactly you want to do yet. it's okay to some days do nothing. it's okay to some days do everything, or at least feel as though you could. it's okay. you don't have to have it all figured out-- and if anyone makes you feel as though you should, it's because they don't have it figured out either and they're just as insecure about it as you; they're just handling it differently.

two wild animals live at the ends of your arms and some days they want to capture the stars and some days they don't know what to do with themselves-- it's okay. some days the world is black and white and some days it's glorious technicolor, some days it all seems so crystal, so quiet. other days it's not and it's a mess and you want to growl because your lips can't manage anything human. it's okay. some days you are an ocean spilling over with purpose and reasons while other days you won't even know why you do any of it. some days are sharp inhales, and others are slow, agonizing exhales and you know what? it's all okay--

it will all be okay.

you're a student. you're an explorer. not having things figured out is what makes life so, so alive, darling. someday you'll look back on all these restless nights and sweaty palms and long for a taste of what it was like to be a child with growing pains again. you don't have it figured out right now; you can only see the first step. the staircase is a mystery. and all you feel like is a bundle of wondering if its even there at all.

this, this wondering, wandering place. this place of nervous swallowing and deep breaths in: this is where it all begins.

it's okay. i'm here too. 

savor every single moment of it.







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  1. Man. Yeah. It's soooo hard to be in the in between. Like, either not knowing what you want to do or even KNOWING what you want to do (at least partially) and not feeling like you're GETTING THERE FAST ENOUGH! :-P But yeah. Thank you for this.

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  2. Love this. I wish we could all be okay with living in the unknown.

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  3. i love this so much ❤

    thank you for writing this. it's so true.

    xo
    emily | lost

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  4. I'm in this place now, and it's kind of unsettling. Mostly because everyone expects you to know. And I don't. But when I shut out all of that, and consider this next year, it's exciting. I've have very few things planned, and that means there's no excuses when God opens up something I could never have imagined. But it's teaching me patience, and trust. And humility - I don't have answers.

    Anyway, thanks for sharing such encouraging hopeful words:
    this, this wondering, wandering place. this place of nervous swallowing and deep breaths in: this is where it all begins.
    You're an inspiration. xx

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  5. Growing pains!!! Yes!! That's such a perfect way to put it on the days that I struggle to accept that there are just some things I don't, can't, and won't understand. It's okay to admit to not knowing the answer. And that's not a reason to be afraid. Such lovely words of truth <3

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  6. SOBBING BC I NEEDED THIS. gaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh you speak to my soul stahp.
    (but really don't stop i love this so much it hurts)

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  7. i needed this. OHHHHHH THANK YOU KATE. "you're a student. you're an explorer." YES. and "two wild animals live at the ends of your arms and some days they want to capture the stars and some days they don't know what to do with themselves-- it's okay. some days the world is black and white and some days it's glorious technicolor" girl YOUR WORDS are absolutely amazing. this is great. i love it.

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  8. Yup yup yup. Life is confusing, but it's okay. <3

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