thinking about paris




sitting at a desk, looking out a window, thinking about paris. thinking about us. 



I think that's what actually 'gets' me the most about what happened in Paris; the fact that, no, it isn't about just Paris, or about the people immediately impacted. it's about something bigger. it's about all of us, it's about everything that's important-- everything that actually matters.

the other night I posted a facebook status, and feeling drained, I just said something like:

"...I hope coffee cups seem less important."

...or in the instagramed words of dear friend, and brilliant blogger Olivia, "the things that seemed so big yesterday seem so small today." 

Those words hit me in the chest. This whole thing hit me in the chest, because what happened in Paris has nothing to do with Paris alone, but with all of us. We unite with them, because we are family. They're not just "people over there" they are brothers and sisters, and it hurts us because we bleed with them. The lines and borders are erased, and suddenly they are closer-- there is no distance. Why does it take tragedy to make us feel that?

Paris makes me think about how thirsty I am. How thirsty people like Martin Luther King, Jr, and Nelson Mandela were-- how thirsty people like Malala Yousafzai are. Thirsty for what songwriter Jon Foreman lyrically describes as "a justice I ain't ever seen."

Justice, love, world peace. Yes. But it's all so... big-- so inflated, so...out there. We all talk about it like its meetings and bureaucracy, and large-scale strategies. We make it all sound so complicated, and unachievable, and suddenly my heart is sinking in my chest and I can't get my head around it. We make it so we can't get our heads around what love and peace on earth would actually feel like.

I don't know about you, but I'm just a kid figuring it out. I'm a child, and I'm watching the world with wide eyes. I'm grappling to make sense of it all. And at the end of the day? Well, I can't help but turn back to the words I've highlighted neon in my bible-- words that tell me it works like this: love one another.

Is peace on earth that far off? or does it simply start with something like loving the person to my left...

and the person to my right...

the person who cuts me off in traffic...

and the person who just lost a son or a daughter in a shooting that should never have happened.

My heart aches, but it keeps searching. The waters are rough, but we have to keep swimming, because land is beyond the next swell. Keep running. Keep running because you believe him when he says "on earth as it is in heaven".

maybe that starts with us.

with me.

with you.

What have you been feeling about this?


k a t e 

prier pour mes frères et sœurs qui pleurent
#prayforparis

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  1. "Why does it take tragedy to make us feel that?" < YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING. or, not human being, but you know what i mean. yeah.

    wow.

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    1. YOU. YOU ARE THE BEAUTIFUL HUMAN/LIGHT BEING. xx

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  2. I don't even know how to fully process this stuff--but you are so right. It does make everything else seem small and petty. Except one thing--and that's God, who will never be smaller than this stuff.

    Thanks for your words, Katie. :-)

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    1. amen. "If our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?" -- we will not be stopped. Love will not be stopped. Thank you so much for your encouraging words, Hannah Joy

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  3. Your post is making me cry. I tried to write about my thoughts on that night, but nothing seemed to feel right. I couldn't fully capture what was on my heart, but you did. (you do that a lot, actually) I'm saving this post to read forever. Thank you. <3

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    1. giiirrrlll :') I also read your post-- I need to head over and leave a comment super soon (I've been an awful silent reading lately) but oh man...what you said, I feel so much. I am so glad that my words could bless you in the same way yours blessed me

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  4. "My heart aches, but it keeps searching. The waters are rough, but we have to keep swimming, because land is beyond the next swell. Keep running. Keep running because you believe him when he says "on earth as it is in heaven".

    maybe that starts with us."

    how am I feeling? to be honest... this whole thing just took me totally unaware. we don't have a tv, don't watch the news, so I had no idea that anything at all had happened in Paris until reading Hannah's blog post... and even then, I was like "what?" That's how I feel. "what?" I feel a step behind, off-balance, jarred. And a little bit afraid.

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    1. I didn't hear about it until someone messaged me about it, a half an hour or so after it happened. I was stunned. My thoughts were like a mess until I wrote this. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.... I feel like we're all joining hands and making our way towards it. <3

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  5. i can't deal with this. your post summed it up perfectly, you're an amazing writer. i don't know how i feel. scared? unsure?

    Brainchild

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    1. awwww man thank you so much, Natalia. <3 I think we all feel the same... I take comfort in the words of Jesus when he tells us to "fear not" for he "is with us"

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  6. thank you for writing all the words i feel; we feel. the thing that amazes me most is the way everyone's coming together for paris, for freedom against these terrorists, it makes you smile slightly through those tears.

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    1. Thank you so much, Evelyn. I couldn't agree more...there's an amazing strength in unity to help aching souls pull through. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

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  7. Merci beaucoup pour tes mots.

    This is beautiful, Katie, and has said everything I have been unable to express. I've felt so uncertain since hearing news of Paris, Japan, Lebanon, and the rest of the world. My heart grieves, and I wonder what is there for me to do and how can I help or even make an impact where I am. And, as you said, perhaps it all starts where I am, with me, with how I treat and regard the people around me. I may not be able to make a big-scale, world-wide impact, but where I am, I can make a difference, I can show the love that God commands us to show to one another.

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    1. Alyssaaaa, your comment blessed me so much! I couldn't agree with you more. Right on. As we show Christ's love to one another, we manifest his kingdom more and more. Thank you so much, girl <3

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  8. The thing about Paris is that upon first hearing about the violence that took place I don't think I registered how close this hits home, even though it happened on the other side of the world. It's amazing how much support is being shown, and after hearing an account on the radio this morning I am unable to understand what reason anyone could possibly use to justify these events. While the people in Paris may be our brothers and sisters, so are the terrorists and activists and sometimes I wonder why we're all always fighting.

    -M
    The Life of Little Me

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    1. it is a startling and horrible thing. Love needs to rule. It can and it will. We are the warriors of love.

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  9. This is beautiful -- thank you so much for putting this feeling into words. Keep thinking. Keep writing. Keep loving.

    it works like this: love one another

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    1. ditto, ditto, ditto and thank you SO MUCH <3 your comment encouraged me so much

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  10. this is pure goodness and your words inspire me to love.
    thank you for putting into words what my confused and loud mind could not do for itself.
    you're a lovely human being if you didn't know already xxx
    also i was mentioned in your post: asldfkjdslk.

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    1. nominated you for the liebster award in my latest blogpost cuz you're the bomb soooo feel free to check it out ^-^

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    2. AND YOU ARE AN AMAZING HUMAN BEING, MS. OLIVIA. <3 The instagram quote was brilliance. Made me think. AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE NOMINATION AHHH can't wait to head over to your blog and read the post!

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  11. Thank you for putting into words the feelings that I haven't been able to figure out how to express ever since hearing about this tragedy. <3
    "I think that's what actually 'gets' me the most about what happened in Paris; the fact that, no, it isn't about just Paris, or about the people immediately impacted. it's about something bigger. it's about all of us, it's about everything that's important-- everything that actually matters."
    That's just so eloquent and so, so true. I honestly just cannot even wrap my mind around all of it, all of the pain that those people caused. The way that you ended this post is so inspirational. We all just need to show more love.

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    1. I am with you, Grace Anne... I cannot wrap my head around it either. Peace needs to come to the world-- through us. Your words are an encouragement to my soul, and I feel so blessed that this could be an inspiration to you, too!

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