loosen the fists



Oh beautiful. Believe me when I say I know. I know where you are right now; I know how you feel. I know you have a hundred million question marks fighting with your dreams and the distance between who you are and who you want to be, where you want to go. I know.

I know you're all like 

why, why, why?

when, when, when?

Restless, ocean heart. Beautiful.

Loosen those fists. Reach your fingertips to the sky-- breathe in. Let go.

You want to be everywhere, and you want to see everything, and you want to light up like a Saturn V. I know you, lion heart. I made you, remember? Remember how I kissed your face and held you in my arms and said, shhh, it was all going to be okay.

Because you are an Everest, darling. You are a supernova.

I know. I know sometimes its hard. Sometimes you just want to run so fast and so hard. But darling, there's a light ahead. Reach. Stay. 

I hear you whispering in bed, in prayers, in the predawn, how long, how long, how long?

And I want you to know that I'm there. That I know, darling. I know. And I am with you. I am with you in the restless nights, and through the days when you feel like your lungs will explode if you take one more breath in-- darling. I'm there. I'm with you. 

When you're restful, and when you're restless, I am with you.



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It's been a time of feasting; of learning, of searching, of recharging.

It's been surf trips, and new opportunities. The road to publishing is a crazy and exciting one that takes up more of my time than I had expected. But I love you guys <3 and I'm crossing my fingers that this post will spearhead getting back into my blogging groove.

It's a restless season. But when he's with you, it's a good season. 

Oh, and go listen to this and this.


x o

k a t e 


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18 people commented on this post.

  1. I like this a lot. A lot a lot. Thank you for writing it. <3

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  2. man, what a reminder…
    looking forward to seeing more of you and your beautiful words in the blogasphere <3

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  3. oh my word. this is beautiful and meaningful and so very lovely.
    like, this post reached out from the computer and gave me a much needed hug. thank you for writing it!!!!

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    1. I AM SO HAPPY THAT THIS POST COULD DELIVER THE HUG! *hugs* your comment blessed me!

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  4. Yay! I saw you had written a new post, and I came over as quickly as I could to gobble up your beautiful words. Man, was I hungry for them. Glad to see you again, Katie :) And the new template is very very nice!

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    1. AWWW, Hannah thank you, girl! Your sweet comment made muh dayyyy. :) Glad to see you too, and I can't wait to head over to your blog and catch up on some reading!

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  5. Ahhhh, this is me all over tonight!! I am so so tired of waiting for ...things! For the parts of my life that I can't control to fall into place; I am having an incredibly hard time with

    let go, and let God.

    and that line about taking in more breaths until you feel like you'll burst? That's me, too. I've missed you! Glad you're blogging again. :) And so exciting about publishing!! Eek! Share details maybe? :)

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    1. OLIVIAAAA *hugs* I so know how you feel, girl. SO, soo much. The struggle with restlessness is real. I have missed you bunches too, girlie! Can't wait to catch up on your blog. And more details about publishing soon! Very excited to share more on that note

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  6. It seems I'm in this same spot right now. This is beautiful, Katie!! :)

    xx Sarah
    imsarahanne.blogspot.com

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    1. well you're not alone there, I think a lot of us are there together. :) thank you so much, Sarah!

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  7. I love the colours in all your photos.

    -M
    The Life of Little Me

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    1. Thank you, M! Maine is super photogenic, I must say :)

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  8. THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED GAH TEARS THANK YOU X100000000

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    1. OH MY GOOOSHH <3 thank you, I'm so so blessed that this could be an encouragement to you, Olivia! Your comment made my day

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