under your skin



I've developed a habit, which may possibly turn out to be a bad one, but in the morning before I get into the normal desk-work grind, I have a little coffee and tumblr time. So with that little confession out of the way, this morning I was scrolling through my tumblr feed when I came across a post-- one that caught my attention only because of how long it was.

The title read Dealing With The Distance Between You and God (Breaking Up Fallow Ground), and as I scrolled down I skimmed it.

Following the title was a list of things that the author was suggesting you should analyze about yourself. Like, are you jealous? Do you have anger issues? Are you not serving enough? Do you swear? Are you respectful to your parents all the time? Are you not serious enough about the purpose of life? Are you ever prideful? Do you ever lie?

And after all of this, at the end of this long list, was the conclusion that if you said yes, even a small yes, to any of the above, you are sinful and this is why you don't feel close to God. Because there is a buildup of sin in your life, so God cannot be close to you-- you're putting a barrier between yourself and him.

I don't know about you, but if you're at all like me, you don't have things all together. And of course your prideful sometimes, and you've messed things up, and you've disrespected your parents or a friend, or someone, and you've fibbed or been jealous of someone else. You are not a silicone, all-together, white teeth, acne-free, airbrushed human being. You are messy and yes, you've done stupid things-- but here's the important part:

Paul, the guy who wrote a huge portion of the new testament, stood in front of an enormous crowd in Athens Greece, and announced that God is "not far from any one of us"-- and that "in Him we live and move and have our being". He wasn't saying this to people who were perfect, sin-free and had their acts together, he was telling this to an extremely diverse crowd, all kinds of people who had no idea what they were doing, who were worshiping different gods, sacrificing other humans, and participating in very violent and disturbing rituals-- these weren't like perfect people. They were messed up searchers, who didn't get it. And Paul tells them that God has "not been far from any one of them".

I've been reading and re-reading and just kind of feasting on the two books of Samuel, and in these books there's a very long and dramatic documentation of the life of a man named David. We read about all of his victories and high points, but also of his extremely tragic and numerous low points, all of his blundering and screw-ups and acts of violence. David wasn't flawless-- he was far from it actually, and over and over and over again, he's called "a man after God's own heart."

After God's own heart.
Not because he was perfect, but because he wasn't.

God doesn't have an allergy to people who don't have it all together, in fact he became one of us, hung out with us, called us his own, married us. We're perfect in Him because he swallowed us in His perfection and beauty, not because of how hard we work at it.

I've actually found that its oftentimes when I'm at my worst that I can feel him the deepest. I can feel my roots in Him, his voice, his kisses, his "hey, love. it's going to be alright. I promise. I love you."

Don't ever let anyone tell you that he's distant-- waiting for you to clean up, wash off and pull yourself together so he can finally come and maybe hang out with you. No, actually,

he's nearer than your next breath.
he's under your skin.








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  1. I love this post. So. much.

    It was actually exactly what I needed. I literally just read through 1 and 2 Samuel and it was really good. And, I've still got to blog about this topic too actually, but Ive been learning the exact same thing. like,wow. God loves ME! Ive sort of been struggling with a crap load of sin issues and just issues in a general, and I felt like God was kind of disappointed in me. because its stuff I struggle with constantly. and I somehow got it in my head that He was up there shaking His head at me. and He's not. He loves me. and that is nothing something I can comprehend. and I dont want to. because the second we think we can wrap our heads around it, we lose sight of who God really is.

    sorry for the rant thing. lol. but seriously thank you so much. this was just what I needed to hear.
    also the pictures you took are truly stunning. and I also start my day off with tumblr and coffee:) no shame!

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    1. Faith! Your comment put a huge smile on this girls face. :) I so agree with you...it's such an awe-inspiring think to think about how much God loves YOU as an individual. Not because you're perfect but because you are you! <3

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  2. I totally agree with you...it's funny, I hate it when I hear people say stuff like this, telling me I have to have it all together...and yet that is the thing that knocks me to my knees in shame every time, because that's what I tell myself. And I often believe it, too, that God loves everyone else just the way they are, but I personally am just not trying hard enough. It's something I'm struggling with and overcoming and this had me nodding my head and wishing that I'd had someone tell me this a few weeks ago.

    Anyway. :)

    p.s. I live my whole life on Pinterest, so your secret is safe with me.

    p.p.s Has anyone ever told you that you look like Christina Grimmie?? Cuz you do.

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    1. *big huge hugs!* I know what you mean...the struggle is real. But hang in there, girl, you are so so SO loved and you are an AWESOME DAUGHTER OF THE KING, PLANET SHAKER, PRINCESS. Yep. And nooo no ones ever told me I look like her, but I just google imaged her and I was like...0_0 I do look a good bit like her! xD Thank you, Olivia!

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  3. Thank you for this reminder, Katie! I believe this is one of the biggest things young adults struggle with - the pressure of "keeping it together". But, as you said, that is impossible. We're all sinners. That's why we NEED Christ, because we can't keep it together, because we struggle so much.

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    1. Thank youu so much, Evelyn! That really means so so much to me. I am so glad that my words could encourage you. The struggle is real but we're all in it together. <3

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  4. I feel like I should say something deep, but all I've got is I'm glad I read your blog.
    xx

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  5. Such great thoughts, Kate.

    I agree with you. I do believe that sin separates us from God (Romans 3:23) - and that's why He sent Jesus. To be the mediator for us. Once we become Christians, NOTHING will ever separate us from the love of God - no matter how far we stray. Such a great reminder! I'm so glad you shared this today.

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    1. "NOTHING will ever separate us from the love of God - no matter how far we stray." < SO much amen, sister. <3 Thank you

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  6. This. Love your words. And the truth of them. He is such a good, goooooood Father.

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    1. I couldn't agree more, Kimberly-- our father is awesome! <3 thank you

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  7. man, you got a way with words you know that!? and that fifth and sixth paragraph though… so good! xoxojana

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    1. gahh, thank you so much Jana! your words made me so happy

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